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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 20:46

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I like this guy and his personality is AMAZING. He’s everything I want EXCEPT I’m not 100% attracted to him. I’ve dated some really hot guys and I’m wondering if that’s ruined dating for me? What do I do?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Why do I sweat so much at the gym?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He knew the spot.

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I have no regrets .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

When she asked me how she looked .

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im still living with it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

This is soul school!.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

How can a hacker damage me, realistically?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was seconnd youngest,

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I said to her

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

We were not on the streets..

So, i spoilt her more .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Who then, do I blame.?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Comes on , in middle age.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I will be 64.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One cannot live in the past .

But, we were locked up after school.

I was scared of men, in general

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But it wasn’t much.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She was in good health!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Put me off passion for life!!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I waited trembling.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I couldn’t, believe it.

What did i know ?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She found it foreign!.

I think the readers, may guess!

I could never make a relationship work though!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My family never makes their pension either.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I write beautiful poetry .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

(And it was in our own minds.)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Ive learnt so much.

We all went to grammer schools

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My life is so biszare .

She wouldn,t have been !

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was 9 years of age.

She loved him until the end.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She married twice! .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Would this be the day?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I don,t even have a pension.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was very sick at this time too.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why did i forgive my father ?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And i lived it daily.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It was going to be , some day.

So whats the point in blame.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

All the time i was locked up.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).